Hmm,

Its been awhile.
Fuck blogspot.
Tumblr>Blogspot
http://ashhlaayx3.tumblr.com/
Haha, thats all(:
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Aug 12, 2009

Happy One Month<3
I like you(;
haha.
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July 22,

Its been awhile, like almost a month I think, since I posted something.
Lots of things have changed. Summer almost over): Going back to school like next week already. How sad. Had a sleepover, SADIE CAME! and wealth dressed up, LMAO! And the day before that I thought I was gonna get in trouble because Kris, Wealth and JonRay came over, when my dad said they couldnt. But he never found out, thank God! But we left the fckn Wii on, and I thought he knew. But whatevers. Haha, thats all for now(:♥_

Take a Chance-

I think Im taking a big chance. I think I fell too hard, too fast. And now Im realizing it.
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<3

Grandma Eduarda Cabiles Cachola.
I miss you, you lived a long life, and you did so much for so many people. You had six kids, (Aida, Tudy, Demy, Alma, Elsie, and Leonardo) and seventeen grandchildren and great-grandchildren. You were the eldest of six children but lived the longest. You suffered many deaths of loved one, all your siblings, parents, and your son. You helped raise almost all of you great-grand and grand children.

After finishing only sixth grade you helped your family work in the fields. And met your husband, Valentin at a party. Right before World War II you got married, which means you were married for atleast seventy years. After having and raising all six children, you helped raise their children. You first moved to California to help raise Ernest, Tudy's son. Then to Hawaii to help raise Elmer and Elayne, Aida's children. And back to California to help raise Elsie's children Ronald and May. And you continuted to help raise your great-grandchildren.

In June you were immited to the ICU and was diagnosed with pnumonia. With everyone gathered around you, your husband, children, and some grandchildren, you waited to pass. Until the last of your children arrived from Hawaii, Aida. As soon as she arrived and said her goodbyes you passed, knowing that everyone was with you. Your eyes watered before you passed, and after you cried. And you continuted to cry even after you passed.

Even though I never got to see you a whole lot, I knew you were a good person. You were 93 years old, and still remembered everyones names. You were always smiling when I saw you. And all the stories that I've heard about you are good, never bad. You always looked after me, cared for me, and remembered me.
Grandma we love and miss you!
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SUMMER-

never posted anything in awhile.
first day of summer wealth came over,
and i ate, wealth never really ate. haha.
played wii, i kicked her butt(:
and made jasmines present.
thats all.

didnt do anything today,
how sad.
not gonna do anything thing tomorrow.
but i have soccer practice!
gonna see the kenzingtons again!
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May17-

Its been a long weekend.
Saturday, had a game.
Technically we won, haha,
they forfeited, but we played them anyways and lost.
went home got ready.
went karaoke with the team, was super fun!
then we decided to go watch movies,
so we watched Angels and Demons.
was super good, but kinda graphic.
Sunday, went beach with the family.
i think i got darker finally. haha.
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May02,

Its been a long ass day!
Woke up at like 8:30.
Got ready for ohana fair,
went, looked for people.
found kris, then wealth came.
we rode the spinny thing, with four of us,
with jasmine, wealth, kris and me.
was super fun!
lol, then we watched people preform.
then rode the ride again with wealth and marielle.
then we got food.
was good(:
watched the old ladies, fckn weird.
then i had to go.
went to the game.
almost scored a fckn goal!
it hit the damn post.
but we won(:
fckn shut out, finally!
then went home, got ready for the dance.
wealth picked me up.
went dance.
was fckn gey.
haha, whatevers.
im getting tired.
good night.
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april 26,

Normal weekend.
Watched 17again, was good,
zac efron is sexy!
25 days of school,
thank God.
i wanna go to the beach.
VOTE WEALTH!
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April 22,

It was a damn good day.
It was a day of relief, and worry,
at the same time.
But you'd have to be me to understand that.
Desiree fckn cracks me up!
Thumbs up or thumbs down...,
thumbs down!
lmao,
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April 21,

Insanity.
Lmfao, its been such an interesting day!
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april 19,

The weekend is ending. Had a game but it was just a scrimmage I guess. The other team didnt have enough people so we gave them some, and played. I got hit in the face by myself, before the game even started, lol. But thas ohkay. Then went Iolani Fair yesterday, with the Kenzingtons. Ate food, and played games, and ate malasadas, and played games, and watched the talent show it was pretty fun. School tomorrow, and Im super tired, and sick, ugh. I hate school already, and I have a spanish test first thing in the morning, how nice D:
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dance,

hooo fuck,
was so fun.
ive been missing out, lol.
im going way more often.
i actually danced. haha.
with raymart, and michael, and someother guy.
lol, it was fun.

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YOU,

haha, you read my blog so what.
not everyone reads, barely anyone reads it.
again take a chill pill, and shove it up your ass!
mhm, so you can tell me sorry all you want,
believe what the fuck you want,
think what the hell you want.
but right now that wont change how i feel.
I still hate you, and i know thats a strong word.
and yeah I hope you do read this blog
youre only hurting yourself.
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asdlkfhaelnf,

idk, lifes boring(:
same as usual, pretty much.
i wanna go to the damien dance now, bcuz its so damn boring.
i need something to look forward to, or some shit.
lent is over, i gave up on not swearing,
ill try again next year.
easters tomorrow or in like 15 minutes.
yeah, i think hes finally cracking, he misses me,
and i know it. haha, what a dumbass.
he cant last without friends.
so stupid.
fuck it, good night.♥_

vent.

take a chill pill...,
and shove it up your ass!

haha, FUCK YOU.
hypocrite.
i think i hate you even more, than before
if that possible. ♥_

dissappointment,

i dont know anymore.
i make me so frickn angry, and we cant seem to have a decent conversation anymore.
and you treat me like sht, when i tried to be nice. then you start to get mad, and make it seem like im a bad person. and i know im not, but you make me feel like every little thing is my fault. you blame me for your problems. im not fckn superman, i cant all of your problems, and mine. learn to run your own damn life. gahd, youre so dumb. you cant even run your own life and you have a girlfriend, are you stupid. you tell me all your problems to make me feel bad, because i wasnt there for you. did you figure out why i was mad at you, you only wanted me to say sorry to you. you never said sht to me. and i kept apologizing but fuck you never cared. and you put words in my mouth saying im not sorry, and i didnt care. if i didnt care so fckn much, i wouldve left you with all your problems a LONG time ago. i wouldnt even try to fix our friendship. so go ahead and tell me that I dont care, and tell me that Im not sorry. You made me cry for the first time in a long time! and you never gave a sht. you tried to make me feel sorry for you, so you told me that you cried for weeks, because i wasnt there. I wasnt there for ONE week. ONE FUCKING WEEK. and thats the fucking past. what the hell do you want be to do about that. build you a fucking time machine, and fix every little thing. ITS THE PAST THERES NOTHING I CAN FUCKING DO ABOUT IT!
I dont fucking care anymore, and im not fucking sorry anymore. FUCK YOU, I dont need you, and your sht anymore.
I hate you Daniel Mann.
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rawr,

Major headache!
Gonna drink a lot of orange juice and take Tylenol.
I need to be better by tomorrow.
ugh, and I need to clean the house more.
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March 24,

Spring break<3 FINALLY!
it was my birthday yesterday,
and i cant wait for the sleepover!
Its been boring lately,
still not talking to the fagget, who knows why.
whtevr, bye.♥_

March 18, 2009

Happy birthday Christopher(:
Hes three now.


Are things better or worse?♥_

March 17, 2009

Bad day): I feel like a lot of things right now. I feel like crying and smiling, and cutting and jumping around. An old friend talked to me, and we fixed things. And Im super happy about that, because it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. That weight has been there a lllooooonnnnnngggg time!.
But then Ive been trying to fix other things, and that hasnt worked out so well. Yeah Im forgiven, but were not even friends anymore basically.
and i feel like crying my eyes out, really, really badly.
and i think i will.
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March 15, 2009

Lose a friend, gain a friend. It really is kinda weird.
Its pouring.
Its 1:44am.
Its boring.
Its time for bed.
Goodnight.
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March 11

yeuh, idk. Nothing has changed much. The bullsht is still the same. Fuck you!
This is freeeking ridiculous, butt hole. I calld, but dummy never answerd so whtevrs.
People are telling me Im pretty much being a btch, but I think Im always like that. Just bcuz i told someone to shut up, I tell a lot of people that. They just dont hear it, and arent paying attention to me.
Haha, whatever. I hate you.
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change.

Life. Life is change, and well you cant change that. Little things change, that we may never notice, but the big changes in life are a bit more noticeable. You just may not realize it at the time. Like how people and friends change, and you dont even know who they are anymore. Well thats basically whats happening right now. I have no idea who these people are anymore. Pretty much everyone in a relationship, and doing things. And I have no idea what to say to them, or how to react to things. I just hope for the best and hope they dont regret anything.
But who knows maybe things are changing because Im not changing, or maybe I am the one changing.
You lose some, you win some. You lose friends, then you make new ones.
Who knows what will happen in the end.
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March 01, 2009

Its a new month. I havent done this in awhile. And a butt load has changed since then.
Lent started and I gave up swearing and soda. Lots of people are in relationships now. And I learned a lot of things in the past few days, things I never really had to know. But I know it anyways. My grades have gone down, then right back up. Im doing much better. And my birthday is soon(:
And thats all for now.
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Feb.17,09

What a long day. Stupid boy said he'll be nice to me for a week, or he owes me a dollar. Had Morality first, was boring never did my homework. Which reminds me that I need to do it now-__- how lame.Homeroom.Guidance, stupid bitch, irritates me. Lab, he irritates me too.Open, ate lunch. Study hall, pretty much talked to Kayla the whole time. I need to make her a sign. Then English, read Romeo and Juliet. Chaenas stupid.how she tells people to shut up, then she starts talking. Dummy. Caught bus, some filipino guy kept talking to me about respect, and do good in school! And sht like that. idk. Then I ate a granola bar, and went on the computer. Then homework, then blah, blah, blah.
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February 09, 2009

I never have time for this. i don't have much time for it now either, but I need a break from homework. So today was a pretty normal day, except that I went home early, because my tummy hurts like mofo! Ugh, it still kinda does. Nurse made me lie down, which only made it worst. Missed my history test, and I need to make it up tomorrow. So I have a Spanish test, history test, and an english paper tomorrow, isn't that nice. Ugh, whatever, I hate it. I think I'll blog more often.

time,

Im too lazy to do sht. I hate going on the computer. Bleh, too much sht to do. Schools been pretty good, but I forgot to do my history homework. And I dont wanna bring my book home.
Our last game was yesterday. It was against Sacred Hearts, ugh, we lost. It was senior night! Last game for the seniors:( It was a pretty shty game, we lost. 3-0. There was only one yellow card though, so thats good, lol. And I got to finally play...for like five minutes. ugh, that was gey. But I still got to play. So thats good.

new.

a new year, a new start. Its time to start fresh(: